I think as a human being I’m losing my touch of self, and it’s because I am not listening to myself actively. I’m often distracted by social media, movies, games, people, contents, that I forget that I too have something to offer.
Self is basically that person behind the wheel that tells you to take a turn left, “oh slow down”, “oh it’s time to overtake”, you know… that time when you were feeling confused, anxious and miserable, was probably self telling you it’s time for a change, your gut feeling.
It helps you to know what you truly want in life, in a relationship, in your career, in a party, in food choices (what to eat), and if you listen close enough you can almost hear it speak, but the thing is that I don’t.
It’s not that I don’t hear him speak, more like I’ve drown his voice so deep within me that I can barely hear him whisper. There were times when I could hear him speak so loud and clear that I would be determined and focus. I would have 100% clarity on what to do, where to go, plans to put in motion, even songs or movies to watch at certain times in a day. But one click, one scroll, one series, and…. we’re back to square one, and that’s the problem.
Distractions… distractions are like candy bars, they are sweet to consume, and the more you consume them the less you feel likely to eat a balanced meal (except you’re a foodie). It takes those pieces of concentration your brain would need to do something productive and replaces it with immediate gratification. So instead of me to work on learning a language, running a business, going for a walk, cooking, I would be busy typing in “Clock it” comments on Instagram and smiling at Cat-Baby videos ( finished man).
And the thing is I know If I focused on myself I would probably be doing great at these things. I would be better at the keyboard or acoustic guitar, in writing a book or poem, or joining a sport club, or working on side projects. But I wouldn’t know if I don’t know what my self is saying.
So here’s to trying to do better, to improving on a daily basis, cutting off distractions and listening to self 👌👌
