I recently came across a line that said:
“To be loved means to be worth the inconvenience.”
It hit me harder than I expected.
Because suddenly, everything made sense.
His I love you…
The one that felt so big, so warm, so magical in the moment — turned out to be nothing but a beautifully packaged lie.
I held on to those words like an anchor, but he never meant them the way I did.
When I sit alone and try to make sense of what went wrong, I still can’t piece it together. I asked him for clarity, for honesty — something real — and all he said was:
“Maybe I said I love you too soon.”
What does that even mean?
Do men just say it to fill silence?
To keep someone around?
To feel something in the moment?
Because now I don’t think I’ll ever trust an I love you again.
Even after we ended things, I didn’t walk away.
I tried — God, I tried so hard — to fix what was broken. I reached out, I apologised, I asked for another chance. But he responded only after two days… sometimes more.
He met me only when it was convenient for him. He called only when he felt lonely.
Love shouldn’t make you feel like a backup plan. But I kept going back anyway.
Here’s something painful I need to say out loud:
On our first date, he booked tickets for my favourite artist’s concert. I thought it was the sweetest thing anyone had ever done for me. Except, he didn’t go with me.
Apparently, he was “too tired” from traveling.
Then — right after we ended things — he went to another concert with a random girl.
No excuses.
No tiredness.
Just a choice.
A choice that wasn’t me.
After two months of trying, I finally gave up. But giving up doesn’t mean forgetting.
And forgetting him felt impossible.
So I did the kind of stupid, messy, impulsive things heartbreak makes you do.
Things I’m not proud of.
Things I won’t justify.
A day before my birthday, I tried the idea of a rebound. I wasn’t trying to hurt him — we weren’t even together.
I was just… broken.
Lonely.
Tired of crying over someone who wouldn’t choose me.
And somehow…
he found out.
What happened next is something I never expected — and something that changed everything between us.
And I’ll tell you in the next piece.
