This was the last attempt, the only hope that after reading this letter she would understand the depth of the situation and take things seriously. Instead of crying and begging me to stay and asking me not toleave her, she would reflect to the situation and help me to work on fixing things that were pushing me away.
Here is the first part of the letter.
You never listen… never. You don’t know how to listen. That’s why I’m writing this.
I still ask myself — why did I fall in love with you? I have no clear reason… it was just a feeling. I wonder how I stayed with you for so long. You locked me in emotionally when you called me your “hope.” I experienced your positive energy — your normal, true self. It was you who drew the love out of me… when you felt loved through my actions.
I honestly believe it was your nature that brought out those feelings in me and allowed me to show love. I felt it deeply too. You told me so many times, “Please don’t leave me… everyone leaves.” I felt those words strongly — they stayed with me. Maybe that’s why, despite everything, I stayed… kept trying… kept fighting for us.
I never saw you as weak — never. In my eyes, you are a strong and self-reliant woman. I don’t know how you see yourself. No matter what others say, I’ve seen the childlike part in you — and I’ve felt it too.
