I’m sorry I still can’t erase your name, your face, your soul, or everything that reminds me of you.
The first time you came up to me and started talking to me, all I could do was avoid you karna kayak lau sape mpruy tiba tiba ngajak ngomong:/
The longer I watched you, the more I realized who you truly were kind in the smallest ways, effortlessly funny, gentle in both words and actions, and always caring for the people around you. It was impossible not to admire you. And before I knew it, I was drawn to you.
All I could do was admire you from afar, quietly watching you for years without ever finding the courage to step a little closer.
Then, one day, you started liking someone else. I could only stay silent as I watched you talk to her, laugh with her, and share moments I had always imagined for myself.
It was my own fault.
I never started a conversation. I never sent you a message. My pride was always greater than my desire to spend even a little time with you. So eventually, I convinced myself to let those feelings go. Holding onto them only left me with jealousy, so I buried them and poured my heart into my education instead.
And yet, even now… I still find myself thinking about you.
Maybe it’s because I miss you.
Or maybe… some people never really leave your heart, no matter how much time passes.
